Its Time to LEt GO!!!

3mth plus oso over jor....i stil haven gotten over u~~~
bt nw i noe de truth...tat u have others in ur hearts d....
I thk its time for me to LET You Go n Have ur own life....
I wish u all de best~~wit her....
I hope u wont treat her lik u treat me....>.<

Tis is de video i dedicate to u~~>.<

郭靜Claire-我不想忘記你

~~FiNalLy~~

WooHoo~~~After all de hard work tis 3weeks sleepless nitez of burning midnite oil~~~
At last~~all de subject finalz~~finish lu~~HapPy DAO~~~~=D

Nw its time to holiday jor lo~~jus a short 2 week+ nia~~~wanna go wet 99 le~~
bt fren seems so busy,sum workin sumur~~~

De ppl i miss pula workin~~haih~~no time pei me~~siennya~~~hehe~~~^^

WANNA GO OUT!!!GO OUT!!!!PLAY~~~~CLUBS~~~yUHOO~~~~XD

~♥ Care♥ ~

Care~~mayb is a word i shud leave it long time ago toward u d~~since v break~~
Bt den i stil care~~cos i care bout u~~
Haih~~u say u oso de same~~bt~~y??
Y whn i care u ignore me??
Fuck~~
Its my fault la~~i shudnt disturb u jus nw~~
Im so sory~~dun worry~~I wont disturb u anymore~~
U gt lots of ppl care bout u~~less me 1 i thk its ok~~
Stupid me~~Stil 1 so kepo duno for wat??

Final nxt week start~~bt i jus couldnt concentrate on de study~~
Fuck oni~~i Hate it lidat~~
God pls bless me tis time~~
Realy no mood~~>.<

I'll cherish n appreaciate wat i have nw~~ Include de 1 i love n de 1 who love me~~^^

~~♥ MaRiA♥ ~~

Free~~~bt SiCk..>.<

At Last~~~last week...everythg has settle....
From Assignment to presentation everythg is done!!!
So i mus enjoy my life n nt trap in it~~~
However its jus for few more weeks~~cos Final is approaching as well~~~
Haih~~tat time mus kept my self in de cage n study kao kao~~~
My teamate is de best....can settle everythg in last min~~realy admire them^^

Went to alot of place last few weeks....
went to PD for bike show n know new ppl....
Its a great experience though!!
Gt to sit in yeng de bike~~~
New fren might cum to KL nxt mth again~~~wit bike~~yu hoo~~^^

Today whole day at home do nothg~~~jus c drama den on9 oni~~
Sick oso...haih~~~sore throat n cough~~hope its nt serious....
Yoke san sick d as well....
if nt act today wan go shopping geh~~~
bt end up have to cancel...
cos everyone sick~~~

H1N1 is scary nowadays....so ppl mus start to take care thmself d....
PLS take care urslef~~~

For you~~~
I hope u to b strong n work hard in ur new found job~~
Hope it brings de best out of u~~~
Pls b strong no matter wat n dun so easily giv up~~~
Earn more money~~~its important~~~

Tis is de week to enjoy everythg d....
I wan to enjoy n nt to thk of anythg~~~
Although i want sumthg to happen....>.<
I'm stil in holiday mood la....everythg went pass by too fast for me d....
Lidat a sem jiu wanna finish d...haih~~~

Hope all de best for me, frens n u~~~^^

~MaRia~^^

Kuala Kubu Baru Waterfall

Today....so so so tired a.... Yesterday go Quattro 4am oni back...den today 6.30 nid wake up de...bt i overslept...till 7.50 lidat wake up oni saw Huat msg... Lucky Huat oso buyin thg...if nt i sure kena d de... Wake up faster bath..den chap thg...walau...stil gt abit hangover from yesterday de liquor~~ blur blur~~

V start our journey at 8.10 am lidat...wit 8ppl altogether....
1) ME of coz....
2) Mei yi
3) Cheng
4) Jonathan
5) Wei Chien
6) Kar Keat
7) Kah Hing
8) Huat
in 2cars....den reach de destination around 9.50 am lidat...bt..stil haven reach our waterfall o... Stil have to walk walk walk.....
Hike thru de trees....stone....hills....river.....tunnel.... Ther is total of 4 crossing if nt mistaken~~
Den a...de stone in de river is damn slippery de lo~~~fal down few times...kns..wetz~~~>.<
Ahaha~~ Den a...in tis trip...realy can born out de TEAMWORK spirit...coz everyone helpin everyone thru de road...help thm climb hills...take thgs...cross rivers...ahaha...its fun...n oso DANGEROUS le...
Den a...de water a..is damn cold de lo....cold dao lik ice water....GRrrrr... We walk walk walk....at last...after an hour of hiking.... Sampai dah~~~de wonderful waterfall....

At ther....eat our NAsi lemak n bread wit tuna...gt many fish as well... V gt feed thm la..although ther's a sign say canot feed...
WEll...RULES ARE MEANT TO B BROKEN~~haha...XD

Reach ther...tat WC macam budak kecik lidat..nvr saw b4 poo2...terus fast fast jump in n den panjat here n ther... Jon say his pants makes him looks lik gay...funny la... WC keep singing de WE R DE WORLD in de forest...sound pollution~~

De most happening is whn JOn a..climb de rock n wanna jump...bt mana tau...he tergelincir..den fall lik a sardine...walau....the expression a...damn funny wei...keep swim swim after he fall... macam buta arah~~HAHAHAHAHA....de scene is too funny d....

Then thy more fei...nak bina empangan...gather all de stone to block de wall...sohai~~ tat KEat a..so serious in collecting de stone...n WC busy givin instrustions n build de wall wit stones~~~duh~~

De water is cold dao~~~beh tahan lo....bt after goin jiu ok la... tat Kah hing..walau..wear belt goin...boom dao~~ahaha.... It is nice to go near th nature sumtime....quite fun oso..... But~~jus nw jungle trekkin tat time...de tress thos
keep cut my leg hand...nw gt bruise d...sad..



Den ystrdy sumur fall down back club coz leg Zhau KAn...kns...nw so kao lat...
V at ther...play till around 2 sumthg...den hike back again....
Around 3pm lidat reach....outside...
KNS...no ppl work de...den hav to change at outside lo...no toilet available...back home oni bath...
Reach home around 6...den FB awhile...bath...den c tv eat~~~til nw...

Whole body aching~~so damn tired~~
Tmoro sat n sun sumur nid go YS hs dicussion for assign...
tis week din back KLg....
Have to sleep early lo tonite~~~eyes oso tired d... no mood do assign oso....haih~~~
Can v make it??left 1 week for us...pray to god~~~
My leg so pain...nw keep lik gt water....>.< Haih~~~

~HaPpY BdAy To MySelF~~^o^

13th July 2009....
A yr have pass~~Tis yr n last yr nt de same~~
Tis yr i celebrate alone~~
Ahaha...bt time stil de same lidat pass by me~~
Wish Myself happy bday ba~~
All de best,Wish Came True~~

Tis yr 21st d lo....
I wanna do sumthg tat i might nt dare to do de....
Wanna try everythg....
ahaha.....

Hm~~nothg much..
Tmoro test again...bt i din read dao...
Lik nt scare lik tis...
Duno hw to do tomoro jiu cham~~~

Hmm...ki pou hang pou ba....
Late d...wanna sleep liao...
Hope i can happy always....

Erm...u're nt de 1st to wish me....i'm disappointed...
Bt i gt my fren....
Thanks for their wishes o...
Love u guys so much~~~

Sweet dreams to me....^^

~~WiCkEd SiCk~~

Till today....i d sick for almost a week d....
So suffer....firstly it is jus flu...bt den its attackin me every morning n nite....
ystrdy beta...no attack so kao lat...bt...today wake up head so hot...
Feel lik fever...~~haih~~

Hope tat sum1 can take care me now~~
Nid wen nuan~~>.<

Ltr 3pm gt midterm test for de SPM subject...
Shit...gt read lik no read lidat...
hope can pass le...
If nt...de lect will photostat our paper let de whole couse c....>.<
So sia sui la tat time.....

Den after test back KLg lo.....
Erm...wanna c doc ma??

3more days.....hehe~~all goes well for me lo....^0^
Do i realy have de chance ma??
If nt...dun giv me hope~~i'll lean on tat hope to keep on goin~~~

~MaRiA~

~~MemoRies~~

Memories will always be inside my heart.....
Ppl say its hard to forget ur 1st love....
It might b true.....
Bt it depends on whether u wan to realy let go tat relationship or nt.....
N i noe it realy hard...although u wanted to...


Years, mths,days pass by.....
Last yr de tis day tis mth......
V were planning to celebrate for my bday at club....on de 13th July...
And u did...u celebrated for me...it was an unforgettable bday ever....n i wont forget about it..thanks...
N v couple up on my bday...So sweet~~
So...hope till it would last a yr n den v'll have a anniversary....
Bt v d cant make it d....because ther's too many thgs tat happen in de 11mths time....
There are Happiniess,Sadness, Gratefullness, Bless, and Love....
All de ups n downs ,Sweet Sour relationship v have tried....
Bt end up...v cant make it....bcos??


Of a word.....I trust u too much...Trust tat u'll really love me till de end....
Thk tat i'm d gd enuf for u n u wont find others....
Bt i'm wrong~~ Seems lik u stil crave for de outside world....stil wanna have fun...
I gt a shock whn answers about ur behaviour started to reveal to me one by one...
And de worse...it have to cum from others....
I d tried my best....realy...giv my all....to save up tis relationship...
Why??Can tel me y ma??U have to be lidat....
Bt~~end up....i am de one who who end tis relationship....
And u gt nothg to tell me....
I really disappointed....Bt...i Choosen tis decision....although i cant take it...


I stil care bout wat u do,wher u go....
Whn i on FB every week i will saw ur club pic....
Seems lik after v broke....alot of gal started to comment u....
Bt i dun und...y u mus go club every week??
I tot u say u hate Club....
It make s me heartache de most whn i saw u drunk lik hell lying on de floor....
Y mus lidat??
U realy can jus let it go so easily tis relationship....


I ask u....u say u jus go ther drink liquor oni...
U say u gt no answer...jus noe tat u miss me....
Izit??I tot....bt den...i cant c de action....
Its ok...ur rite whn u tel ur bros...
U d have ur own life....Single life....
N i shud move on wit my own life as well....
Mayb i'm de one who cant make it...
USELESS ME!!!I haTE MYselF LidaT!!! >.<


Jus nw whn i'm in bus....suddenly i thk of many thg bout u n me....
Tears falls unconsciously from my eyes....
And i rub it off...hope tat no one saw....
Suddenly i tot of questions...alot in my head tat i wanted to ask u...n it keeps goes on....
Lik neverending~~~~

Questions such like:-

When u're alone, will u think of me???
When u're driving alone in car, will u thk of me who use to sit bside u?
When u went club,will u thk back our 1st time met up in club?
When u're cleaning ur room, will u thk back hw fun it was whn v clean my room together?
When u're sleepin at nite,will u thk back hw v hug each other sleep?
When u're wit ur frens, will u hope tat i can join u to have fun as well??
When u're Msn-ing,will u unconsciously open our chat log to c back hw sweet v were in msn last time?
When u're lookin at de inbox,would u open up my msgs to jus look at wat i've sent u?
When u're lookin at de pictures, would u also open up our folder to look at our pic?
When u're upset, will u thk of me as ur shoulder to lean on n listen?
When Sum1 said my name, will u feel sad n ur heart aching??
When u say u miss me, do u realy meant it?
Will u care bout me,whn u noe i'm sick?
Will u try to found out hw am i wit other way bside askin me??
When go to certain place tat v used to go b4,will u thk of my existence?
Have u ever refresh back ur mind bout our sweet memories from de beginnning till de end?


Ther's so much more ques i can thk of...
Bt sadly...i have no chance to ask....
Although if i do...
U oso wont tell me de truth jus lik u r hiding sumthg....

Tis Fri ur convo day....
Cant c ur convo lik u c mine....
Abit sad...bt its ok....u have ur frens to c....
Congrats on ur convocation k...^^
I wish u al de best in ur Life,jobs, and oso love life....

~MaRiA~^^

~~Suffer~~

Sun nite...as usual...came back from Klg to start de 8am class tomoro...duh~~~
Sick a...from de ystrdy de liquor at maison....god....
I was nt enuf sleep....sleep at6am den 9sumthg let mum wake me up jor.....
God....de whole day my head is spinning coz of de liquor....

Maison...ahaha...a club tat v used to go last time....
Renovate den reopen again....
Nothg much different act...jus add sum pic on de toilet wall...duh~~~
No as pack lik last time oso jor la....

Nw suddenly de nose keep running nose...non stop...y la....
Suffering man....

Stupid assign...haven done by reading de article yet...tis week wanna pass up....
Fri gt mid term test...SPM...god...i langsung duno anythg bout hw to do it...
Who wanna help me nw??

June end...say hi to July again....so fast o...
SAy Happy birthday in advance to myself 1st...ahaha....
Em...let me thk back alot of thg...

Times....will heal me i guess....can it??
Nt sure...jus can c....>.<

Its time to sleep...if nt my mum keep say i gt panda eyes d....shit....ahaha....
Nitez~~Sickness...pls go away~~~~=(

~~U Will Always Be de Same~~

Y i say so??
Coz u always will be de same ppl wit same attitude no matter its before or after...
Doesnt care ppl waiting for ur answer de...
No responsibility....

I call u, n wat u say??
U say u will call me later...
Den...end up??
Wat is de time nw??
If u wanna go club jus tel me...its ok de...
Dun let me wait lik so poh lidat for ur damn simple answer...
Jus a "YES" or "NO"??
So HARD ma??

Haih~~~okla...I Guess its time...realy nw its de time...
Let go ba~~u have ur own life d....
Many frens will care for u....U dun nid my care anymore~~i noe...=(
I duno y i so stupid stil trust wat u tell me...haih~~=<

Tis is week 6 d....Shit a...many assignment oso i haven start....
Nxt week gt assignment have to pass up n a mid term test cumin....
God~~help me k...bless me a...^o^

Michael Jackson~~may u RIP..ur legacy will forever be remembered by all...^^

I miss tat sum1 o.....wondering is he oso de same??Hmm....^o^
Wanna Dedicate tis song Hai Shi Hao Peng You By Cyndi Wang to u...^^

So fast already in July d...got to say bye to June...Yrs,Mths,Day,Time keep running...
many thgs oso changes during tis period...wondering am i doin de rite thg??
Rite choice??Rite action ma??
Bt no use to regret d...let it b ba...hope everythg will be fine....^^

~MaRiA~

~~Zouk 4Play~~

Yu Hoo~~~Ystrday went to Zouk Kl Club....
Its de 2nd time went ther la...bt realy different from de 1st time i go...
Weena becum de Zouk ambassador o...so can gt to b in guestlist lo...
Den tis yr age 21 jiu can goin....

It was fun....many frens oso go ther...
Howard, Jason n Hui ru...klg fren oso came...^^

Howard, JAson ,Hui Ru n Me^^

Den stil gt Rain fren around 20 ppl lidat....
Our class oso nt bad la...around 15 ppl lidat oso..hehe...^^

V at Barsonic upstairs...keep take pic....shoot here n ther....^^

v reach tat time de osng stil nt so nice...
bt a...middle tat time...abit high d...den DJ Goldfish....Yoke san Fav DJ went up...
Woo~~stage jiu HOT jor....Everbody started to dance d...
Everybody JUST DANCE~~~~~


All de Pretty Gals....Bt miss out Yoke San...sad..cos she bcum photographer...

Cheng follow us...miracle...^^

Conclusion...Fun...bt tired...my leg damn pain...dance too much jor...ahaha...
Cumback...terus bath..den sleep d....
nt enuf sleep...>.<

~~RaiNy Day^^~~

Today is rainin day o...
Feel good a...coz nt a hot weather anymore...
Today after 4pm went to PJ ther jus beside Jaya 33 nia wo...for casting a secretary de pose....
Act wo...ahaha...1st time...
De casting manager giv me alot of advice a...
Bt stil..i LACK of de feelin of Wei Nan zuo ren...
Bt stil i DONE my best d la...
All de best lo...

Den take lrt back tat time...sumur rain....Saw de keropok lekor...Emm...long time no eat d...den buy Rm 1 5 piece go back eat....^^
Reach home around 7sumthg....tiredz....

Den tot yoke mei wanna go out wit us NS fren de ma...ystrdy plan de...
Bt mana tau she say she sick...
So nw waiting for Chew cum fetch me lo....
Hmm...

Jus nw cal a fren...wanna giv him present de....
Den he ask me go down eat...i sumur thk thk wan ma...coz dun feel wan eat ma...
Den jiu ask him miscal lo if go down...den i go bath....
Den ltr he msg me say tonite yc...feel lik dun lik me go eat la...
Hmm....duno le....feel lik he feel lik i'm annoying to him....
Or mayb his fren dun1 him to ask me....
Haih~~~den ok la...lagipun i oso dun1 eat ma...
Nvrmind lo...yc ma yc lo...c hw ltr la...if din cal jiu suan le...>.<

Haih~~~Tiredz.......
Wanna sleep....suddenly dun feel lik goin out d...
Haih~~Wanna tok to sum1...bt he sumur so busy...haih~~Sad nia....>.<

Assignment a~~~~~ARGH!!!!!!!
Beh tahan d.....whn wanna start o me???
Y i so lazy de????God!!!!bless me man....

Lately jus keep listen to tis 2song nia.....
Jolin-Tuo Shie
Power Station-Bu hui Ku De Ren
Quite nice de song....^^

Another song....Hui Yi Bu Shi Wo de....oso nt bad...^^

~MaRiA~

~~JoUrNeY~~

Today 8am de class bt wake up late at 7.30 lidat...god...
den fast fast wake up bath ready den take cab to coll wit weena....
den reach coll jiu 8.30 + o...so sia sui goin de lecture late....ahaha....
lucky de lecturer forgiv me....^^

Den finish lect at 10am..den discussion awhile den i go do my ptptn thg....
Shit la de ptptn de workers...damn action de....
So HATE them...thk thy so big lidat....hmm...
Wan me go wher find my offer letter o??
Oso duno throw wher d la...duh~~~
Bt canot...mus fast fast find...nid submit...haih~~~
Nid money le....!!!>.<

Den after tat go Klcc wit mindy n yoke san about 12 sumthg lidat....den walk to pavillion meet Weena...ahaha...long journey....
Den go Dragon-I eat...so funny ther...wohoo....

Den shop shop shop...bt i jus window shopping...
Coz wan pei thm buy shirt ma...^^
Den shop till~~~~~7sumthg sit bus wit carmun back condo...so tired... walk back...haih~~~

Den a..at Pavillion meet my NS fren wo...den date nite time yc again....
Den he finish movie around 9sumthg cum to condo reach around 9.30 lidat....
bt wait me n another fren bath till 10++lidat....
Oops....sory Chew....hehe...let u wait til so long...^^

Den yc till 1.30am lidat....cumback...den bath..
write blog...sien de life...
Assignment pilling up...
Bt i haven done anythg yet le....
Shit!!!!

Tomoro wanna go til PJ ther audition de ca le fe....duno can ma...ahaha...1st time act...^^
All de best to me o...^^

Stupid fren...wan giv him bday present oso so hard...duh~~~
Sad nia...if dun1 jiu nonit giv jor....ahaha...
I thk he dun need it oso d....>.<

Its late d....have to sleep early...tomoro 10am class...haih~~
I wan b free....of assignment...n jus play....
Mayb my holiday mood haven end....so stil wan enjoy kao kao....>.<

Focus in my STUDIES nw PLS....>.<
Gambateh ne....!!!

~MaRiA~

✿【ReLiEvE】✿

First time i feel so relieve after all my sufferring for few mths back.....
Mayb if i took tis decision earlier....i wont suffer til so long ba....

Oso blame my own stupidness...i dun want to trust other ppl say....
And decided to trust u....coz i realy believe in u....

Few frens started to give me hints bout u whn i tel thm my prob.....
Bt i stil stupid stupid de ignore n trust u....
End up....tis is wat i gt...

Truth started to reveal to me lately....one by one....
First time i noe...its really heartache.....
Bt soon...i started to feel....use to it....
Maybe u is lidat de ppl....cant change d....
I c wrong u....i take it as my lesson lo...my experience....

I wont tel ppl hw i treat u hw gd,or hw bad....
U noe it urself den its enuf ba.....
I wan u to jus remember tat u have a good memories wit me before....
Hope u never regret u chose to be wit me at 1st....
I oso wanna thank you for al the sweet memories u gave....
I will still keep it...n let time...slowly fade it ba....
THANKS.....

Decision is i take de.....or mayb u oso wanna say it very long d....
Nevermind....nw u can have ur freedom d....
Go have fun ba....FLirt...Sms...Club....
All u can do it d....Enjoy....^^

RELIEVE!!!!I'm on my own....
Thanks to all my frens who be wit me whn i'm sad....
U all are my sunshine whn i rain....
Ahaha.....^^

Coll start 3weeks d....assignment is cumin one by one....
Stress cumin in d oso....walau....
HELP me a~~~~~~
Bt i thk can make it de....
GAMBATEH ne.....^^

✿MaRiA✿

Damn!!!!

Everytime u go club...din tell me...i cal u no matter hw many time..sure u dun1 answer de....
pls la...use other method la k...if nt scare let me noe u go club can jus let me noe...nonit dun1 answer my call....
U noe wat is PISS OFF ma??


Haih....one time one time lidat giv u chance...bt u duno hw to appreaciate...u wan me how o??
Ystrdy i ask u gt go ma...wat u say??
No mood...dun1 go...
Den ask can today cum fetch me ma....u say FRi...ok...wats de reason??
U say no reason...ltr u gt train ball al thos...ok...fine..den train til wher nw..??
Fuck la...stop bluffing me can ma??
Im tired le...stil wan torture me till whn o??


Today 12 June d..1more day jiu 11mth d,
1more mth jiu 1yr d...bt...I thk v dun have de chance to celebrate it d..
Haih~~my heart seems like...hard to say...
I cant say tat i totally dun love u d...stil gt de abit if i force myself to...
Bt i really cant take it liao...one time one time u lidat bluff me...
One time one time...i saw evidence u flirt wit other gals...
One time one time i Forgiv u...bt u stil wanna repeat de mistake...
Haih~~i really nothg to say...


My fren told me...whn v lenjing tat time..u everyday fetch a gal go coll de...gt ma??
Gt fren told me say...u went to club wit gals...den hugs n kisses...gt ma??
She oso told me tat she saw wit her own eyes u dun1 answer my call although i really call lik mad gal to find u...gt ma??
U told ur fren dun tel me wher are u tat time...coz u act at a gal hs...gt ma??
I nt wit u tat time u go find other gals...call,msg thm...gt ma??
U flirt wit other gals in msn....gt ma??
Haih~~i stil willin to forgiv u although wat had happen above really hurts me alot...
U gt appreaciate ma??


I dunola...bt i realy chose to trust other ppl more thn u d lo...coz of wat u done...
Pls dun blame me...I noe u stil lik to play...
I nvr control u ma...am i realy such a bad gf for u...til u wan treat me lidat??
U can love me deeply last time...bt nw u treat me as shit nia...
Haih~~

CONFIRM!!!
Fren told me u go MOS club...ok la....as u lik lo....
Scold me whn i go...say i din tel u...ur self le hw???
Y muz keep lidat kek me o??
Speechless...sad...kek sam nia...


Ok la...really make up my mind d....
I'll let u go n have ur own life...wit ur frens...wit any 1 u lik....u dun hav to include me in ur life anymore...nonit la..


I appreaciate everythg u done for me...realy...
I appreaciate the love and affection u gave me....
U r my 1st love...no 1 can replace wat u done for me....
I never regret once i fall in love wit u...n realy hav a great memories wit u...


Bt...if thgs cant b fix d...ther's no point i keep on wan u stay on my side...
Coz u will keep find a way to bluff me...
Which i dun lik....haih~~


I hope u can treat ur nxt gf beta...pls dun treat thm lik u treat me....
It really hurts...
Its a hard decision to make...n i noe i will sad...bt...its for both of us good..
Take care....I love you....='(
But now i will love u as my fren...


All de best to you in ur life n everything k....Pls dun always jus dota ball la...Find a mission in ur life den do it k..
Muz proof let ur family c..u is can de...^^


~MaRiA>.<~

~~KaRmA~~

13th July is act a date i been waiting for...coz its de date wher i n dear 1yr annivesary anf its oso my bday...
Bt now...it seems so blur d...

Karma is de word i can use to describe ba...wat i did in de past tat hurt dao ppl...nw it al came back to me to hurt me back...

I really chose to trust u last week whn v're in genting and i saw tat gal msg u bout de "Lao gong wo ai ni" de...i really tot is tat gal cum n flirt u de...

Bt nw wat i c is different...u oso gt go flirt wit de gal...n it started long time ago...even b4 de gal came n add me in FB. She even gave u gifts sent from Kuching...
Everyday u al chat..den webcam..u c her..she c u...so fun...
Evryday u msg her...she msg u...n even call u dear...u cal her BI...

I even saw u tel her u wan settle wit me 1st oni u can b together wit her...
den say til lik u dun realy love me anymore in ur heart juz gt her...n den say u break wit me d de...juz tat i ask u for 2nd chance...
U noe wat i feel me??I really feel lik a slut...let u treat me lidat...
U even ask her wan giv me 2nd chance ma...even though v d together for almost 2mth d after out len jing de period....

Haih...i realy tot v were in a great relationship after evrythg happen...
tot tat u realy love me de lik last time...
Bt y??Why muz u bluff me??
I did told u bout her adding me in FB n ask bout de ques...bt u act til lik u dun realy lik her...n she is de one tat flirt u...y la??

wat i saw in ur msn history...u always call her bi...den say u vry miss her...tis tat....den whn nw i gt to noe d...i ask u..
U tel me u juz simply write to her???
Wow...wat a stupid answer...

At last...all tis while...oni i noe de reason....
U refuse to put our pic in FB..oso coz of her...
Ur display msg...refuse to write bout us oso coz of her...
i even saw tat u say u wan put de...den she say later i misund...
u say more gd if i misund..den u gt topic to tok to me n settle it....
U noe hw hurt ma...whn i c all thos??

I really duno hw to describe my feeling nw...haih~~wat i can do is cry oni....
u say u r sorry...bt...haih~~duno la...:'(

~#aih~

Ystrdy act vry happy de..cos mornin can b wit dear tat few hours...cuddle wit dear,c tv..den chat chat..although is jus few hours,bt i satisfied..however i oso wish tat de time can b longer...
Bt cant..i hav to go work d..god..realy dun wish to go work.:(

Den at nite,open fb..c inbox..
Nvr tot ppl can ask me such question...on tat time duno wat i shud reply...

Ur fb or duno coll fren..jing ran ask me in fb..whether am i ur gf?
Wat i shud reply?pls tel me..i realy feel weird y she ask...doesnt ur relationship status ther stated clearly tat u're in a relationship wit Maria Tong Huay Leng ma?
Y sumur 1ask???

Den i reply yes,y u ask?
Den she say i tot des no gf?
Den i say y?he told u so izit?
Den she say So?
Den i say y u ask?
Den wait her reply ltr...

DAMN!!!SEEMS LIK SO RUDE LE..DL!!
Who r u o?is u ask me de quest de le..sumur so rude..y?u lik him izit?or wat?duh...wtf!

Who's fault?me or u?
Haih...10mth d us tis May 13th..
I jus request to put our pic in ur profile oso lik wil take ur life lidat...ask u go gentin wit me oso hav to let me wait..din c u ystrdy 1go club stay fren hs,tis sat 1go seremban stay fren hs,din say u hav to let ur fren noe last min...din say tat u need ask parents first...

Oso early early prepare ur clubbin shirt den at nite straight go wat...
Evrytime ask u go sum place u many reason wit me..wit ur fren wont have reason..anytime can go...fuck la...

Ur fren tis sat oso 1celebrate d ma,wat for go club sumur..say no money,den say fren spend..
Y muz go le?din go wil die meh?i oso din go long long time d la..bt u le..mouth say dun lik club,bt keep goin..seems evryweek u'll b in de club...say drink liquor oni..evenin say duno wan go or nt,bt act oso decide d de..whn go sub,already straight bring shirt wat..if i din ask,i thk u oso wont tel me u're goin club ltr...

In de club oso cant reply my msg,enjoy la..fuck la..jus..haih..realy duno hw i shud express d...

I say i wan go,say canot,say wil gt guys tis tat..i und...den guys le..wil oso have gals al tat de ma...haih...ask u cal me after club...oso cant..jus reply a msg lidat....

Gola..gola...al u need is ur bros la...
Nonit any1 else...me is jus extra...u feel lik wan care me,den u care,if dun1 u can whole dy din keep in touch wit me...as u lik la...nw ur "bros" more lik ur gf..thy c u more than i c u...even 1dy din c u,oso wil ask,den inform u wher thy go...then u sure fly go sub c them...

Wat i dun lik is u go club,i hav to c ppls status oni i gt to noe..whn u 1go,nvr ask me de..jus go,bt whn i wan go,i hav to ask ur permission..i scare u angry..bt u..dun care at all..oni whn i confront u..

Haih~~=(

~Maria~

~~TiReD~~

Realy...realy...TIRED!!!
TIRED of everythg in tis world...
TIRED of thinking how to get back together...
TIRED of thinking wat shud i do to make u happy...
TIRED of thinking whn i shud say de right word..
TIRED of thinking how should i do so tat i can let u have back our last time de feelin...
TIRED of chasing u...
TIRED of juz me caring for u, while u juz doin nothg doesnt care...

When browse thru ur FB profile..found out tat act ther's so many thgs i missed in ur life d...
after i work...
Dear~~realy ma??Is my workin is an issue of our relationship getting worse??
I remember once dear told me it is...
If realy lidat...i realy rather dun1 to work to gt back our relationship...Is it too late nw?

I found out tat dear realy feel more happy being wit ur fren...
Am i acting selfish myself to keep on wan u to include me in ur life??
Izit all of these is my fault??
Am i realy nt a gd gf to u anymore...nt de person u cherish lik last time anymore...??

In ur FB u wrote very stress in ur life...
Bt u nvr told me about ur prob...although i ask..
Long long time d...v nvr chat about wat u thk,feel d??
And ther's many fren who cares bout u...
Mayb in ur life, u nvr really love tat person til de end...
and stop in de half way..let de others care bout u..
U und my feelin ma act??

Haih~~last week went ur hs..saw ur clubbing shirt...
I noe de...u went club..bt u say u din hav..juz go dakei n wear tat...
I choose to trust u...
Tis week..ystrdy...10 sumthg lidat... cal me...
den say u 1sleep d..
I realy feel happy at 1st..den ltr feel weird...
coz its Thurs again..
U wont cal me de if u wan sleep...bt ystrdy u cal me...den midnite i cal u tat time...
keep canot reach..coz network no good...
I dunno is u realy sleep or go Club again...
bt u cal me at 4 sumthg...seems lik after cub time...
Haih...duno la...izit evry Thurs oso wan me lidat...
Thk tis tat...I afraid of Thurs d...realy...
I realy wan to believe u de...bt gt 1time i saw ur msg flirting wit a gal named Cindy says tat u realy wana dance wit her de..bt juz tat she went other club...
u noe tat time hw sad i am ma??bt i tahan..coz v juz gt back..i dun1 quarrel..
REaly sad lo...

Even Sun is de day i hope it would cum...oso i dun care anymore...coz its juz lik same other day without u askin me out...although its my off day...
Last week i tot can spend de whole Sun wit u...bt end up...
u hav to go tournament n said i cant go..coz ur car is full...
If realy full can juz tel me on Sat nite..y hav to say i canot go..bt din gv me any gd reason...
n Sun morning oni say...I realy disappointed tatdy...

Even tatdy i wan to meet u,i oso hav to beg for it...u noe hw cheap i feel ma?
I noe u r tired...i noe...bt u noe y i wan tel u last min ma...
Coz i feel lik if i tel u earlier u wil say duno, see 1st...n mayb coz of dun1 meet me, go out wit ur frens...
Tis is hw i feel...y u cant try to und me??
I realy happy whn i wit dear...oni i can feel u act wit me...
Bt whn u're nt wit me...u realy NT wit me...
Nt lik last time d...although dear is far..bt i stil can feel u near...

Last few days...i hav nitemare dreamin tat dear is leavin me...
I keep cal up ur name...bt u oso dun1 to answer me...i juz c ur back slowly fades away...
I realy scare...n wake up to cal u..u answer de cal...n i ask u wher r u??
U tel me at home...den i ask again...u scold me..coz i keep ask...
Mayb ur answer is nt wat i expected ba...last time u will say...
"I'm here dear...dun scare k...dear here beside u"

Tis Few days i keep thinkin hw to let dear gt back last time de feel...
i stil gt 2day leave n realy wana spend it wit u...bt i dun dare ask...
I scare ltr i ask wat i gt is juz disappointment..
I realy gt plan de...bt...haih~~:(
Sun cumin...i noe dear tis week no tournament...
Bt i thk dear oso wont hope wan c me de la....
I oso dun1 force u to c me...as long as dear happy...i oso willing to sacrifice my happines for u...
Nowadays u oso wont cum c my profile d..wont leave any comment or msgs for me d...
Oni me..me oni will look...

My whole body really tired...physically n mentally...
Even my heart oso feel weak n hurt....
Pls cum n save me up...
I juz nid a huge big warm hug from u in ur arms...
Juz little care from u...pls..tis is wat i expect...
Juz take away all tis pain...='(

~~MaRiA~~

JuKaRi Fit To Fly

Name sound interesting ha...
Em..its a new exercise concept from my fitness centre in Klang...Chi Fitness...
Quite proud oso la...ahaha...
Using flying set to exercise...collaboration of Reebok n Cirque de Soleil..

Yesterday media launch le...9am i jiu hav to b ther d...
So many different kind of magazine reporter came to try it out...
Work as media quite good...can try out tat exercise...
Reebok giv thm a pair of shoe worth RM199,den tops,bottom...
Even provide towels n locks for thm...
Walau...suddenly gt so many thgs free le..so gd..

Its a real excitement man...even 8TV Quickie host Prem n Jules is ther for MC...
I even gt a chance to explain to thm bout the package n giv thm my name card...
ahaha...so suang...take pic wit thm oso o...^^

See lik easy...bt whn v do it ourself...man...its tough lik hell..
Coz i go try it at nite...espeacially de lift ur butt up n engage ur abs part..

Its oni available in our fitness o...4th in de world,1st in Malaysia...
Ppl would cum al de way down to Klg juz for tis Jukari...
At last...Klg gt sumthg to b proud of...haha^^

~MsGs~

Today whole day..1msgs from him oni...haih~~
Den i reply him..jiu din reply back me d...

Den i juz cal him...he stil wit his fren~~
Haih~~busy till even 30 sec oso canot spend to reply a msg...
Den sumur say ltr will cal me...canot spend a minute to juz tok wit me...
Haih~~i duno he will feel wat if i treat him lidat??

Speechless...

~~MaRiA~~ Sad :<

~LaBoUr DaY~

Labour day oso nid to work..haih..cant even go out have fun..so shit le..sumur no triple pay..jus gt replacement leave oni..sien..

Feel lik wanna go out for a date..watch movie..den cuddle wit sum1..jus cuddle n do nothing..den tok about good old days..hw v noe each other..hw v started to fall in love wit each other den date,do silly things together,den tok on phone for hours..msg each other lik ther's no endin,hw v love each other company,n hope to b together forever..etc..etc....

But~wher are you??
Wondering...:(

~MaRiA~

~~JoBs & My FeeLings~~

Works...haih...ask me to hit target..in short time??
Mana mungkin o?? But luckily today gt 5sales..left 10 sales...
But i thk oso cant de la...Except if miracle happen lA..
Ahaha...hope so lo...currently i gt 43 Sales...hehe..gdgd..
Den a my manager sumur giv me Incentives Rm200 for my last mth Sales le...
although i cant hit target...beta thn nothg lo...hehe..so Happy~~^^

Today..dear get his result d..ALL PASS o..
Congrats to him..he GRADuate d lo...
But...suddenly i feel sad...coz after tis mayb he wana go UK for his Degree..
Den hw bout me?? Will he leave me??
Last time v use to tok tis issue before...he says he wont leave me here alone de...
Bt nw...would he??

Suddenly i feel so Alone again...Empty~~No Air to breathe...
Why??
I nt so sure...today he whole day oso at Subang...dakei wit his fren thos...din even msg or reply me...
If his fren back here again in Subang...i will feel tat he will spend time wit his fren more again...
Wont even have time for me d....i feel...

Mayb i stil feel tat his care is nt my expectation ba...
Mayb he stil nid more time to find back de old feelings...
Bt everytime i went to his hs...i would c our journey book juz lie ther Untouch....
And everytime i open hope to c sumthg in de last page that might b wrote by him...
Bt everytime my hope juz trash...
Coz it is always empty... :(

Bout de pic...hehe...
ystrdy i sent him a msg on FB ask him can delete ma...
Den dear really delete d o...
hehe..thanks my dear...
Thanks for und my feelings...
Happy now~~

~~MaRiA~~(^^,)

~~FaceBook~~

Today...Damn PISS OFF whn i on9 to FB den saw tat Gal huggin my BF pic AGAIN!!!

DULAN!!!!Is de word tat i can describe my feelin nw...
Y she can lidat hugs other ppl BF n other guys whn her bf is at ther oso...
Haih~~mayb she drunk??mayb she memang wan do tat??or she miang??

F***...my feelings is juz lik 1 go slap her rite in the face...or mayb gv comment at FB scold her!!
Her bf din control her de meh??
Dear duno hw to avoid dun let her hug de meh??
Den evrybody askin...izit she ur gf...tis tat...
Realy DULAN lo...

Haih~~bt u oso dun1 put our pic..wat can i do??
Is nt tat i din try to ask u put..
Bt u feel its ok..den i oso canot say much...
Bt say real de..whn i saw her profile,or his bf profile..
gt put both their pic..i realy jealous de..

Duno la...its no use i quarrel wit u al tis smal matter thg...
U'll juz gonna be frust at me again..n den v'll be lik last time lidat AGAIN!!

I DONT WANT!!coz i feel tat we r happy now n hope for it to be better de...
So i juz 1na try to control myself nia...
Mayb its end of de mth d oso...Aunty cumin visit..make my mood no gd..
Sory dear..if at tis time i MANG ZHANG or sumthg...Pls dun angry me...

Bt i realy CANT STAND when i c tat gal do lik tis...haih~~
I oso wont lidat la if i go club...coz i noe i gt Bf...Duh~~so moody nw..

Sumur today manager ask to hit target in tis 4days...
Mana mungkin o...Giv tat stupid package..juz left 4days oni ma...
ma waived de ADMIN la..say canot pula...
if nt i gt 3sales d la today...
if gt female sign up today den may cum oni noe admin waived for females i more kena Scold..
No brain de manager le...

Bless me i can hit la..so i can earn more money oso...
den can oso tat sum1 to achieve de thg he wan...^^

Bless Me~~GOD~~^^

~MaRiA~ ^^

~My PrEcIOuS Hp~

Sad~sad~sad~ is de oni words i can describe hw i feel bout my precious hp...
Haih~~y la suddenly wan spoil..
I took care of u so gd..y 1 suddenly spoil...
U make me lost all my notes, sound clip n msgs tat he leave for me...
I cant find back all thos things anymore if I format u.:'(

Yesterday i at Sunway Pyramid..tot juz wan u to be ok den send giv de ppl do de..
Mana tau..ur online ok..bt msgs.notes music evrythg cant goin until nw...
haih~~sad dao me whn de ppl say wana format u oni can ok...
All my thgs will lost...
Bt my notes is inside...al is dear left for me de...
How can i recover back...
Haih~~i realy so REGRET!!!tat i let u gv tat ppl fix...
Nw i rather dun1 on9 so i can recover my thgs...
I cry at tat time whn de ppl say 1 format u...

Haih~~Bt i have to format..coz if nt..u realy canot b use again~~

I go home jiu faster backup ur file d...
Hope everythg backup d la...dun1 to lost de important thgs inside...:(

Notes...Msgs...Sound Clips..u al are important for me...Sob~~sob~~

Bt yesterday..i gt to go out wit dear le...den sumur stay his hs on SAt...so happy...
So long din wit dear d...
Bt i spoil it whn i cry ther bout my hp...
Sory Dear..juz cant stand whn thk dao de documents wil lost lidat...
All is u giv me de le...
i cant lose it~~Its bout us...
Dear giv me de msgs..notes..sound clip v record..mms u sent me...
All is precious to me de....

Dun WANNA LOSE IT!!!
haih~~

~~Cant OnLine~~

So shit le...tis few days i cant on9 wit my mobile....
Life bcum miserable at work..coz time pass so slow...
Ask de repair man d..nid rm40 to fix my phone...
Already pokai sumur nid money...
can fix free bt tat seller i bought from at Subang pula...
NO TRANSPORT GO!!!
Argh~~~fix my hp d,all thg jiu lost d..notes from him,our sound clip...
Duno hw to maintain de notes...its about our journey lai de ma..haih~~

Cant on9 means cant play facebook,cant write blog...so sien...
Bt whn i on9..saw sumthg tat i dun lik...
SAW HIS CLUBBING PIC WIT FRENS...FUCK!!AT BARCELONA~~
Not say i wan jealous although i noe tats his Heng Dai gf huggin him take pic...
Bt..pls la..she hav bf d..y muz she lidat...
If me i oso wont lidat la pls...hugs other guy n take pic lik ownself no bf lidat...
Haih~~u oso will angry la...

I duno tat he act would be more happy goin clubbing wit his frens thn me..
haih~~watever la...
I thk i ok wit de condition now...dun wanna make a fuss...out of it..
DAMN HER!!!!!

Workin at club..is ok...
bt whn cum to de sales time...hard lo...
i nid too hit 56 units tis mth to gt my BONUS!!!!
Bt nw juz left 1WEEKS nia le...
stil nid around 15 units lidat le...
Ppl..outsider...faster cum find me to join member...(HOPE)
hehe^^

Jia you~jia you~~^^

~MARIA~

~~UsEd To It~~

Well~~i think i used to how u treat me d ba..
Din msg me de whole day~~din cal me~~
oni tis few days at nite u cal me...
din tel me wher u go or wat~~

Used to it d..means i oso wont so worry if u din tel me...
al depends to u whether u wana tel me or not...
if not oso i'm ok...
Haih~~i duno la...bt i tot a bf shud at least msg her gf to tell him wherabout al thos...care for her de...
bt all tis thg i din c it on u anymore....
although i used to it...but stil will feel sad...

ystrdy i took a quiz in FB..title..does ur bf realy love u??
Result:Sometimes, your gut feeling is wrong! He so does have something for you.He's a keeper! Just don't do anything stupid, okay?

Wow..i wanted so much to believe it...bt juz time will prove it...n hope tat u realy can prove it to me...

Today...so boring...no sales...bt stil have to hit TARGET le tis month to get my bonus...
ARgh!!! So stress....1na go for a holiday~~~

All de best in ur match today ya...muz careful o...^^

~~MaRiA~~^^

~~WaT Am I ThInKin~~

Ysterdy meet u n v go out...everythg seems so perfect if i din mention bout de issue we r facing...
Bt~~can i juz keep on stand go down...??without hurting myself??
I duno la...whn i back home...hope tat everythg wont end so fast..time dun pass so fast..cos i jus wan to be by ur side..
dear cal me ystrdy whn i din reply u...so long...after wat had happen..my hp gt ur record d...happy...

Bt today...no cal or msgs from u again..cal u juz nw..bt u say u busy..ltr cal me...
again~~i waited..no cals or msgs from u~~
haih~~
5sumthg..i cal again..tis time u answer..i noe u r playin dota..den i say dear~ltr 7sumthg u cum pick me k..u say c 1st..nw dakei..
Y muz say c 1st if u realy 1meet me..if last time..u sure say ok de..without hesitate..
Is nt tat i dun let u ply..jus tat u oso ply whole dy d ma..n oni sat sun i off work early..am i wrong?

De issue...i realy canot tok wit u ma??
if tok wit u,u will be vry frust on me d izit??
bt..if i din tok..i suffer here...:(

God~~dunola...wat shud i do?? wat can i do??

~~Maria~~(*.*)

~After de WAITIN~

I realy so stupid wait for ur cal til midnite..whn i cal u..u din answer..whn i msg..u din reply..i jus Wait~

Ther's is no answer from u even whn i went 2sleep..b4 i sleep i sent a msg to ask u out ystrdy..bt u din reply..

I wait til de nxt dy mornin tat is ystrdy..no reply from u..i cal so so so many time..cal til lik my hp low batt..no single word from u..
I hav to find ur fren n ask them how r u..wher u..
Thy tel me ur car spoil..i so worry..bt..u din even answer my cal..
Thy oso tel me u went club ystrdy nite..haih..
If i say..u sure say me i can go,bt u canot go..say i nt fair treat u lidat..
Bt whn i go i tel u,did u tel me..no!!i cal u jus dun1 answer..
Den i ask u ystrdy nite..u tel me u dakei sumur 1bluff me..y la dear..y?izit u 1our relationship is full of lies..ther's no security in it..i trusted u..y muz u bluff me..haih..i worry u til i almost went to subang to find u..i jus tot can spend my off day wit u,cos u finish ur exam d..bt..it jus another same old day without u..

Den 2dy..ur coll gt event..i realy tot i can go wit u to hav fun..i even ask for leave..n oso cal u earlier,Again!din answer my cal..den tel me u on highway d..i cal u tat time mayb u saw..den u dun1 let me follow den dun1 answer my cal...cos ystrdy i ask u,u wish me can go ma?u say as i lik..realy sad to hear it..if last time u sure say "i so wish my dear can go"..haih..duno la..

Mayb u realy hate me so much for keep on 1follow u..u rather wit ur fren than wit me..tats wat i thk..my perception..bt i duno hw u thk..cos whn i ask u always reply me den,so,hw,haih..tis few answer..i can even answer for u..

Wat u 1me to do to gain back ur faith on me?
Wat u expect from me sumur?
I d giv u de time n space u needed..
I noe its my fault to go club without u last time..i realy insaf..
I promised u..tat i wont go without u anymore..n i realy din go..mayb u feel tat i wil bluff u again ba..haih..
Bt whn u go,u oso nvr tel..
Izit u 1me die d,den oni u wil trust me?

I hate our situation nw..it seems lik ther's a great wall between us..i realy duno hw long can i stand b4 i can break de wall..

Haih..duno la..heartache..
So tired me 2dy..jus went for 3class continuously..3hours continuously..at least i gt de swt out of me..can slim o..hehe..

Pray al de best wil happen 2our relationship n my work..

~Maria~(+.+)