WAKE UP!!!!!

Duno y sudenly i feel myself nt in reality lidat....
I'm in UK...although ady almost 3weeks here....i still dun believe...
Y ha....??
Bt sudenly when we're after dinner...YS say dun u feel sad we stil hav 2more mths here oni...
Ya....sudenly i feel like...ya ha...abit sad...dun feel lik goin bak M'sia...
Although i realy miss my family n frens in m'sia...
Bt here seems lik a fresh start of evrythg...rite??

Helo...Maria...pls wake up lo ok!!!
U're at UK d....wat u thkin sumur??
Treasure tis moment more than anythg else....
Gt a Degree & make ur parents proud of u!!!
& den enjoy life den bak Msia find a gd job & start to pay up ur debt!!!Argh...de hardest part!!
Ahaha.....tats de cycle of life rite???XD

Emo~I've been living in tat world too long....
I can gt up...bt depend on myself whether i want o nt oni...
Bt den after Ys told me de details...
I shud gt up nw & move on!!!Shudnt put too much at 1st...shud have listen to my fren..
Nw...I shud~~
Nt to look back cos i had a better future waiting for me...
Nt to put too much cos i noe at de end, de suffer one would be me again....
I dun wan it to happen again..It's lik a endless dark world...that covers all over me..Fuck!!!

So~~Maria,U shud noe wat u shud do nw rite??
Gt ur fatty ass up & start walkin to de future..pls...
Ahaha...Thanks to my dear fren who und me.....support me....realy thanks...touch...
Cos thy've been thru all de rough moment with me...
Thanks alot Yok-Ke-San!!!XD

Love Game

Love game is a vry dangerous to play with especially when its concern with ur heart.
So v jus gotta be very careful in tis game....

De 1st & de most important rule is : Never Fall In Love easily!!
( Damn!!!Bt I always fail to do so)

Argh....I jus wanted to be happy for once...pls...do let me....
Dun torture me ok ma....
Jus let me go if u're nt so into me...pls~~
I scare of fallin into tis trap again n again...
Oni my frens noe hw hard it is for me to stand up again...
So...pls let me...stay away from de hole longer....

I wanted to love u more,
Show u more~~
Bt I'm scare~~realy...
U made me feel insecure wit ur acts...
Damn!!! I jus hate myself rite nw...realy...
Miss u...bt i noe i canot put too much in...
Den i suffer myself here....Wonderin hw u feel...>.<

Discomfort

I dun care,
I dun wanna noe,
I dun wanna feel,
I dun wanna hear,
I dun wanna see,
I dun wanna noe anythg bout u anymore.....
It jus makes me suffer.....
I tot wit tis thinkin i had let u go....bless u...

Bt whn ur news appear in my fb page stated " Au went from being "single" to "in a relationship."
Suddenly...I feel so gloomy, so down....
I cant help myself to comment wrote the congrats words to u~~
After tat all I wanna do is jus cry in de rain....so tat no 1 can noe wat im feelin nw....
Thkin mus u do tat??
Bt I noes u well,u mus had found her oni u decide to change de status,
Last time whn we're together u nvr change....
She wil be ur future d....

I smile as happy as possible,
I laugh as hard as I can,
I be who I wanna be which is me,
I found back de old me,
Bt y....whn its bout u, i become so weak....
I noe deep down thr will always be u inside....jus I din show it out....

Whn de world thks tat I'm realy happy wit +ve attitude,
Bt Im de oni 1 who noe hw I feels inside....

All I can do is jus bless u,wish u n her both happy....All de best in ur work as well....
Pls take care....she'll be ther to take care of u as well...Who am I to worry rite??

Dream Come True^^

Its Sun morning in Sheffield nw....
I stil dun believe i act at UK d....

Jus lik 2days ago i'm stil in M'sia...bt nw..UK...
I miss my family back ther...& oso frens...
We have time difference of 7hours so i'm stil trying to adapt....
Its oni fries,chic all meat here to eat..gosh....
Ystrdy eat a pack of maggi mee wit de prawn paste my mum made...Yummy....although its jus a simple 1...misses my mom cook as well...>.<

Ahaha...however de life here is lik peaceful quiet...with de cold weather which I love it vry much...^^
We gonna start our orientation tomoro....den we got de chance to look at our Uni~~hehe...abit excited about it...

De thg here r lik damn cheap if we're earning de salary here....cos its lik oni 2-3pound for 1 clothes...if u can find it...
Its a shoppin heaven here.....cos i jus bought Britney Spears 100ml perfume for oni 19.90 pound le....which equal to RM 100 lo....so its quite worth it la....=D

The scenery here is wonderful...abit feel dun1 go back tim....=D

Argh...my camera gt no memory card reader....nw i oso duno hw...de pic inside canot transfer to comp...damn...seems lik i jus gotta use my hp to take pic....haih~~so sad....>.<
Dun hav cable o anythg...damn dao~~

Its oni 7.30 am here....n i canot sleep d...evry1 seem wake up to on9~~ahaha....
Nvrmind..its SUN...we gonna explore more about Sheffield ltr....