~~KaRmA~~

13th July is act a date i been waiting for...coz its de date wher i n dear 1yr annivesary anf its oso my bday...
Bt now...it seems so blur d...

Karma is de word i can use to describe ba...wat i did in de past tat hurt dao ppl...nw it al came back to me to hurt me back...

I really chose to trust u last week whn v're in genting and i saw tat gal msg u bout de "Lao gong wo ai ni" de...i really tot is tat gal cum n flirt u de...

Bt nw wat i c is different...u oso gt go flirt wit de gal...n it started long time ago...even b4 de gal came n add me in FB. She even gave u gifts sent from Kuching...
Everyday u al chat..den webcam..u c her..she c u...so fun...
Evryday u msg her...she msg u...n even call u dear...u cal her BI...

I even saw u tel her u wan settle wit me 1st oni u can b together wit her...
den say til lik u dun realy love me anymore in ur heart juz gt her...n den say u break wit me d de...juz tat i ask u for 2nd chance...
U noe wat i feel me??I really feel lik a slut...let u treat me lidat...
U even ask her wan giv me 2nd chance ma...even though v d together for almost 2mth d after out len jing de period....

Haih...i realy tot v were in a great relationship after evrythg happen...
tot tat u realy love me de lik last time...
Bt y??Why muz u bluff me??
I did told u bout her adding me in FB n ask bout de ques...bt u act til lik u dun realy lik her...n she is de one tat flirt u...y la??

wat i saw in ur msn history...u always call her bi...den say u vry miss her...tis tat....den whn nw i gt to noe d...i ask u..
U tel me u juz simply write to her???
Wow...wat a stupid answer...

At last...all tis while...oni i noe de reason....
U refuse to put our pic in FB..oso coz of her...
Ur display msg...refuse to write bout us oso coz of her...
i even saw tat u say u wan put de...den she say later i misund...
u say more gd if i misund..den u gt topic to tok to me n settle it....
U noe hw hurt ma...whn i c all thos??

I really duno hw to describe my feeling nw...haih~~wat i can do is cry oni....
u say u r sorry...bt...haih~~duno la...:'(

~#aih~

Ystrdy act vry happy de..cos mornin can b wit dear tat few hours...cuddle wit dear,c tv..den chat chat..although is jus few hours,bt i satisfied..however i oso wish tat de time can b longer...
Bt cant..i hav to go work d..god..realy dun wish to go work.:(

Den at nite,open fb..c inbox..
Nvr tot ppl can ask me such question...on tat time duno wat i shud reply...

Ur fb or duno coll fren..jing ran ask me in fb..whether am i ur gf?
Wat i shud reply?pls tel me..i realy feel weird y she ask...doesnt ur relationship status ther stated clearly tat u're in a relationship wit Maria Tong Huay Leng ma?
Y sumur 1ask???

Den i reply yes,y u ask?
Den she say i tot des no gf?
Den i say y?he told u so izit?
Den she say So?
Den i say y u ask?
Den wait her reply ltr...

DAMN!!!SEEMS LIK SO RUDE LE..DL!!
Who r u o?is u ask me de quest de le..sumur so rude..y?u lik him izit?or wat?duh...wtf!

Who's fault?me or u?
Haih...10mth d us tis May 13th..
I jus request to put our pic in ur profile oso lik wil take ur life lidat...ask u go gentin wit me oso hav to let me wait..din c u ystrdy 1go club stay fren hs,tis sat 1go seremban stay fren hs,din say u hav to let ur fren noe last min...din say tat u need ask parents first...

Oso early early prepare ur clubbin shirt den at nite straight go wat...
Evrytime ask u go sum place u many reason wit me..wit ur fren wont have reason..anytime can go...fuck la...

Ur fren tis sat oso 1celebrate d ma,wat for go club sumur..say no money,den say fren spend..
Y muz go le?din go wil die meh?i oso din go long long time d la..bt u le..mouth say dun lik club,bt keep goin..seems evryweek u'll b in de club...say drink liquor oni..evenin say duno wan go or nt,bt act oso decide d de..whn go sub,already straight bring shirt wat..if i din ask,i thk u oso wont tel me u're goin club ltr...

In de club oso cant reply my msg,enjoy la..fuck la..jus..haih..realy duno hw i shud express d...

I say i wan go,say canot,say wil gt guys tis tat..i und...den guys le..wil oso have gals al tat de ma...haih...ask u cal me after club...oso cant..jus reply a msg lidat....

Gola..gola...al u need is ur bros la...
Nonit any1 else...me is jus extra...u feel lik wan care me,den u care,if dun1 u can whole dy din keep in touch wit me...as u lik la...nw ur "bros" more lik ur gf..thy c u more than i c u...even 1dy din c u,oso wil ask,den inform u wher thy go...then u sure fly go sub c them...

Wat i dun lik is u go club,i hav to c ppls status oni i gt to noe..whn u 1go,nvr ask me de..jus go,bt whn i wan go,i hav to ask ur permission..i scare u angry..bt u..dun care at all..oni whn i confront u..

Haih~~=(

~Maria~

~~TiReD~~

Realy...realy...TIRED!!!
TIRED of everythg in tis world...
TIRED of thinking how to get back together...
TIRED of thinking wat shud i do to make u happy...
TIRED of thinking whn i shud say de right word..
TIRED of thinking how should i do so tat i can let u have back our last time de feelin...
TIRED of chasing u...
TIRED of juz me caring for u, while u juz doin nothg doesnt care...

When browse thru ur FB profile..found out tat act ther's so many thgs i missed in ur life d...
after i work...
Dear~~realy ma??Is my workin is an issue of our relationship getting worse??
I remember once dear told me it is...
If realy lidat...i realy rather dun1 to work to gt back our relationship...Is it too late nw?

I found out tat dear realy feel more happy being wit ur fren...
Am i acting selfish myself to keep on wan u to include me in ur life??
Izit all of these is my fault??
Am i realy nt a gd gf to u anymore...nt de person u cherish lik last time anymore...??

In ur FB u wrote very stress in ur life...
Bt u nvr told me about ur prob...although i ask..
Long long time d...v nvr chat about wat u thk,feel d??
And ther's many fren who cares bout u...
Mayb in ur life, u nvr really love tat person til de end...
and stop in de half way..let de others care bout u..
U und my feelin ma act??

Haih~~last week went ur hs..saw ur clubbing shirt...
I noe de...u went club..bt u say u din hav..juz go dakei n wear tat...
I choose to trust u...
Tis week..ystrdy...10 sumthg lidat... cal me...
den say u 1sleep d..
I realy feel happy at 1st..den ltr feel weird...
coz its Thurs again..
U wont cal me de if u wan sleep...bt ystrdy u cal me...den midnite i cal u tat time...
keep canot reach..coz network no good...
I dunno is u realy sleep or go Club again...
bt u cal me at 4 sumthg...seems lik after cub time...
Haih...duno la...izit evry Thurs oso wan me lidat...
Thk tis tat...I afraid of Thurs d...realy...
I realy wan to believe u de...bt gt 1time i saw ur msg flirting wit a gal named Cindy says tat u realy wana dance wit her de..bt juz tat she went other club...
u noe tat time hw sad i am ma??bt i tahan..coz v juz gt back..i dun1 quarrel..
REaly sad lo...

Even Sun is de day i hope it would cum...oso i dun care anymore...coz its juz lik same other day without u askin me out...although its my off day...
Last week i tot can spend de whole Sun wit u...bt end up...
u hav to go tournament n said i cant go..coz ur car is full...
If realy full can juz tel me on Sat nite..y hav to say i canot go..bt din gv me any gd reason...
n Sun morning oni say...I realy disappointed tatdy...

Even tatdy i wan to meet u,i oso hav to beg for it...u noe hw cheap i feel ma?
I noe u r tired...i noe...bt u noe y i wan tel u last min ma...
Coz i feel lik if i tel u earlier u wil say duno, see 1st...n mayb coz of dun1 meet me, go out wit ur frens...
Tis is hw i feel...y u cant try to und me??
I realy happy whn i wit dear...oni i can feel u act wit me...
Bt whn u're nt wit me...u realy NT wit me...
Nt lik last time d...although dear is far..bt i stil can feel u near...

Last few days...i hav nitemare dreamin tat dear is leavin me...
I keep cal up ur name...bt u oso dun1 to answer me...i juz c ur back slowly fades away...
I realy scare...n wake up to cal u..u answer de cal...n i ask u wher r u??
U tel me at home...den i ask again...u scold me..coz i keep ask...
Mayb ur answer is nt wat i expected ba...last time u will say...
"I'm here dear...dun scare k...dear here beside u"

Tis Few days i keep thinkin hw to let dear gt back last time de feel...
i stil gt 2day leave n realy wana spend it wit u...bt i dun dare ask...
I scare ltr i ask wat i gt is juz disappointment..
I realy gt plan de...bt...haih~~:(
Sun cumin...i noe dear tis week no tournament...
Bt i thk dear oso wont hope wan c me de la....
I oso dun1 force u to c me...as long as dear happy...i oso willing to sacrifice my happines for u...
Nowadays u oso wont cum c my profile d..wont leave any comment or msgs for me d...
Oni me..me oni will look...

My whole body really tired...physically n mentally...
Even my heart oso feel weak n hurt....
Pls cum n save me up...
I juz nid a huge big warm hug from u in ur arms...
Juz little care from u...pls..tis is wat i expect...
Juz take away all tis pain...='(

~~MaRiA~~

JuKaRi Fit To Fly

Name sound interesting ha...
Em..its a new exercise concept from my fitness centre in Klang...Chi Fitness...
Quite proud oso la...ahaha...
Using flying set to exercise...collaboration of Reebok n Cirque de Soleil..

Yesterday media launch le...9am i jiu hav to b ther d...
So many different kind of magazine reporter came to try it out...
Work as media quite good...can try out tat exercise...
Reebok giv thm a pair of shoe worth RM199,den tops,bottom...
Even provide towels n locks for thm...
Walau...suddenly gt so many thgs free le..so gd..

Its a real excitement man...even 8TV Quickie host Prem n Jules is ther for MC...
I even gt a chance to explain to thm bout the package n giv thm my name card...
ahaha...so suang...take pic wit thm oso o...^^

See lik easy...bt whn v do it ourself...man...its tough lik hell..
Coz i go try it at nite...espeacially de lift ur butt up n engage ur abs part..

Its oni available in our fitness o...4th in de world,1st in Malaysia...
Ppl would cum al de way down to Klg juz for tis Jukari...
At last...Klg gt sumthg to b proud of...haha^^

~MsGs~

Today whole day..1msgs from him oni...haih~~
Den i reply him..jiu din reply back me d...

Den i juz cal him...he stil wit his fren~~
Haih~~busy till even 30 sec oso canot spend to reply a msg...
Den sumur say ltr will cal me...canot spend a minute to juz tok wit me...
Haih~~i duno he will feel wat if i treat him lidat??

Speechless...

~~MaRiA~~ Sad :<

~LaBoUr DaY~

Labour day oso nid to work..haih..cant even go out have fun..so shit le..sumur no triple pay..jus gt replacement leave oni..sien..

Feel lik wanna go out for a date..watch movie..den cuddle wit sum1..jus cuddle n do nothing..den tok about good old days..hw v noe each other..hw v started to fall in love wit each other den date,do silly things together,den tok on phone for hours..msg each other lik ther's no endin,hw v love each other company,n hope to b together forever..etc..etc....

But~wher are you??
Wondering...:(

~MaRiA~