Tuesday, September 28, 2010

InspiRation-Everything Reminds Me of You

One of the blog I saw from Owl city blog..meaninful and decide to paste it here...

Everything Reminds Me of You-http://owlcityblog.com/
On September 27th, 2010 by Adam Young

Dizzy.

That’s how you feel when you run into a significant other you haven’t seen in a long time. A bitter avalanche of icy memories plows into your chest at breakneck speed, stealing the very breath from your lungs. Gasping for air, there’s really no use fighting it; the blow is instantaneous and it’s overpowering. Your eyes land on this person, your heart immediately stops dead, your knees go weak and you internally panic. You force yourself to walk over, but before either of you say hello, you’ve already got an endless amount of things you secretly want to say and an equally lengthy list of questions you wish you could ask.

What affection the two of you once shared was absolutely beautiful, consequently rendering any unanticipated meetings thereafter twice as awkward. But as everyone always reminded you, life has a way of operating, God has a mysterious way of working, and sometimes things change without a moment’s warning. Even after it was all said and done, it’s still hard to imagine how things could’ve ever evolved from “always” to “never” in what seemed like a single dramatic heartbeat.

Months and months later, you run into this particular person unexpectedly and the realization hits you like a brick wall. The pain is still there. It’s almost as painful as the night you said goodbye. Enough time has passed to con you into thinking you’ve begun to heal, and of course you probably have, but then you see this person and suddenly those old familiar aches begin to hurt all over again. You were finally beginning to mend after what happened, the relationship withered and ended, however dramatically, but the moment you lock eyes with this person you once shared so many dreams with, your stomach turns and a bitter taste fills your mouth. You can barely breathe. Half of you aches for things to be the way they once were, the other half longs to forget the whole thing ever happened. Regardless of your role in the conclusion of the relationship, it left you shattered and bringing it up after all this time would only pour another dose of potent heartbreak for both of you.

So there you are, standing face-to-face, unsure of what to say aside from the typical small talk jabber. A myriad of emotions swirl through both your heads but they only make former lovers more confused. Maybe you hug an awkward I-haven’t-seen-you-in-forever gesture, but that familiar mixed scent of perfume and cologne makes it even more impossible to know how to act, brief as the impending conversation inevitably will be. You just can’t stop thinking “things will never be the way they used to be” and that’s what hurts most. You both know where your identities lie, Who ultimately claims your hearts and where your fortresses are… and those things are truly what matter most, but this unforeseen meeting is still severely painful and there’s no denying that. It keeps you both awake for nights.

As healing as it is, you can only drive around at night listening to The Swiss Army Romance so many times.

This is me being honest. I tossed and turned a lot last week. I thought about someone so much it was unhealthy.

So here’s hoping I fall asleep easier tonight if I send a simple message out into the void:

Boy,

I still care about you. I think about you all the time. I’m praying for you constantly. I want so badly to know you’re being taken care of. I wish you the best in life, not because you’ll surely find it, but because you deserve it. You deserve so much.

I just wish you knew how much I miss you.

Maria


I realy hope u noe Hw much I stil misses U...=(

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

C.o.m.e A.c.r.o.s.S



Have you ever come across a person which he may leave a very deep impact on your life??
Almost immediately you feel there is no 1 else lik him d?
Unless that's him~Only that particular him can giv u this feeling.


Only him can put de smile on your face,
Only him can giv U de calm whn U needed it the most,
Whn U hear his voice, all ur stress automatically jus vanish, & smiles will be on ur face,

Whn U cal him, de conversation between both of U jus never-ending,

U hope it can cont forever lik tis..

Wherever U go, U jus wish that "How Good if He was here right nw".

Whatever U C, U wanted to buy him 1 as well no matter wat.
Whenever U are alone, U wanted him to be ther,

Whenever de phone rings, de 1st name u wish to c was his name,
Whenever U are, Ur heart jus keep thking bout him or sumtimes he may accidentally pop out..he jus gives ur stomach the butterly feeling.


Whn U listen to de song that use to be his fav, U jus keep play it in repeating mode,

Thking hw he say he lik de song n U jus hate it, bt nw u jus loves it, cos its his fAV~

Thkin back de joke he used to tell U, Pattern he use to show U,

U jus realy wan thos Scenario to happen again...
But U noe al that would never could happen again~~

All U left nw, was only the memories he left behind for U,
Kept tightly, deepy in Ur heart...
Open it whn U realy realy miss him...and den cry as hard as U can to ease Ur yearn toward him~ No 1 noes, no 1 sees, no 1 feel,
Only You alone knows it de best!!!


YES..I came across such a person, n he become a person that realy leaves a impact so deep,
I just couldn't rub it off~~

3months over, U found Ur happiness, bt I'm stil de same old me..missing You so badly~~
Guess forever U wouldnt know~:(

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

~~Time Flies~~

Left 3more days before we officially say goodbye to Opal One,Sheffield...
Summer Gone...Autumn is here!!!^^
Feels lik it jus yesterday we jus reach here, everythg was stil new, we stil feel lik an alien to to tis place,
Bt nw we used to it d, we hav to say goodbye...
Tis place realy leave us alot memories....
Happy, Sad, Angry, 8gua, Gossip here n ther, n also a place wher we realy learn de darkest secret of the ppl we dun noe, or noe bt rarely und thm....

Today was de 1st final paper...n yet I got a feeling I'm gonna fail...>.<
I regreted i din study early for all de sub which make me din memorise de point...So heartache!! Bt..its over...its time to focus on another paper for tis thurs...
Jus now...All de unneccessary thg was pack into a box and sent back to msia...nw my room was lik so empty....
So reluctant to c it...>.<

I jus love tis room, loves here, loves de space, loves de weather..almost everythg bout here...
Bt sadly we cant stay!!!
Argh~~hoping we could stay longer....3mths...y it flies so fast....All De Sweet Puzzle Will Come To an End Soon~

Argh!!Jus dun1 leave here...:(