New Life🙏

Starting all anew is not easy for everyone...
I love new places new ppl but due to the situation I'm saying rite now...I have to endure it although I seriously hate it!!

Been in sg for almost 3weeks now,
Culture, places,ppl, food...I still adapting to it...
I miss my family,my place n frens back there as well...
But for a better life ahead I gotta take this step to see wher it goes in my life...which another stage of life...

Meeting new ppl everyday...

Been surviving till this far with my left over money after paying everythg $267.
Appreciate those frens who helped me when I'm in my bad times in terms of financial & their caring.

I got my paycheck today!! But I get shock of my life when thy only pay for the half mth I worked last mth instead of the whole mth..
Fuck!! I guess I have to struggle again this mth..loan, family all haven pay... Seriously a shitty mth!!

This company really eat shit one...sigh...

Hold on!! U can do it!!! 💪👏👌

F.A.I.T.H

I'm not sure anymore with this long waiting, vain promises, non visualize kind of love...

Waiting was so long as if it goes by day by day,mth by mth...
Promises u once made had become so weak,
Person u once use to be...I doesn't know u anymore...

U said love was not based on negative thkin & have faith on each other,
U said I always just thought of my own feelings, nvr thought of urs...
But am I de only one here in this relationship??
If I do have negative thkin, don't u feel u have to be responsible for part of it??

I'm afraid that I'll get hurt of the same thg again...
Yes, u promise but promises ain't nothg if no action.
I'm holding on to nothg...Please und...

Every now & thn I hv this feeling...this thoughts.
That u led me on,den leave me halfway,
& now I Duno whether to continue walking or stand there to wait for u...
I Duno where to look for u anymore...😢
Ppl passby & told me "Are u sure he's comin back?? Cos it's real far from here"

Faith?? I lost it somewhere...

Feels Like a FAILURE

Its 2012 Feb goin to end it mth soon,

March is marching in sooner thn my breath wei...

Yet I feel like I done nothg that I can say "I'm PROUD of myself done that"

Feels like a total FAILURE in life...

A FAILURE in job, quota nt accomplish yet, left bout 2more mths to hit the HAWAII quota...

All quotation seems neverending result!!Damn!!

A FAILURE in love relationship, hide myself at home during Valentine Day, & my mum keep askin me "Why no1 DATE U out??" I was lik..."duh~~no1 means no1 lo...let it be natural"

A FAILURE in my EQ control...feeling all thos shitty feeling al the time...

A TOTAL FAILURE in my family support, cant even provide a gd life to my family as the eldest!! Screw myself seriously....

FAILURE in my decision making & bravery to step up!!

All etc etc FAILURESSS that will continue non stop...

How to overcome all this FAILURE & become a new person??BRAND NEW!!

Totally New New...New York NEW~New Year that NEW!!

Where is my RESOLUTION la??? SERIOUSLY I DONE NOTHG TO ACHIEVE IT...

Help me~~realy FML!!

NOTHG come smoothly....bless me pls!!

~~Ran in2 HIM~~

Never thought after a yr I would ran into him in a mall together with his other half...

Feelings was nt quite heal after all...Hard feelings still there...whn I saw her~~with him...

That time the feel is like..I wanted to see him yet I knew I'll sad if I saw thm both...

Whn I saw him...He was accompanying his gf shopping I guess in weekdays..

Wow..sounds great rite..she was so happy together with him...

He saw me..bt we jus silently say hi without his gf noticing...Thk bak I so wish I could have de courage to jus walk to him & say hi...to see wat's his reaction..

Bt...I didn't..& cant do it!!

Time flies, bt feelings nvr once gt fade...

Every time I pass by those road that we use to drove together, ate together, done thgs together...My mind automatically recalls about him...

Damn...I even went to the place we ate together for that day sushi promo..sittin back the place we sat..Drove to his hs...jus to see his corridor..

My goodness!!!Wat am I thkin??

Hell...this is all so bullshit!!

Come on Maria!!Wake up u bloody asshole!!Stop all this nonsense...

Focus on ur career nw..U stil gt whole lot of quota to catch up!!

Taiwan Bangcock..all waiting...ahaha...

*Pray* *Pray* wish all my quotation all come in sun sun li li...so I can hit my trip quota to Hawaii as well pls lord...=DD

Stress nvr leaves me...

Today we just gt our emergency meeting...Sounds terrible...

Bt jus gt fuck from de division manager..nt a small nag!!Its a realy fuck ur ass to fire type...

Wat we do...look down & thk of wher we go wrong...

She says its nt de figure, its de performance..

Say I'm demotivated nowadays due to my working attitude & sorts...

They thought they put a gd impression & high expectation from me..bt..seems lik i disappointed them...& honestly I really did..I admit..

I don't know where is my passion already...

When starts seeing ppl can sign on de spot, suddenly I feel so stress...Why is all my proposal still cant come in.??

The scolding seems so rude till I feel so down...she says till like I'm ruin all de team...like fuck d become irresponsible...

It might sounds serious, bt it did will affect my manager performance at the end cos its in her quota already..=/

I realy don't know what I want any more at this moment,

Money??Status??

Maybe...both?? Argh...Life is always that hard to make decision...

Haih...bt de oni person I thought of whn I'm so damn down is him...

I rang him up, & he answers...we talked & we laughed..

Feels better after that...Thanks..

I knew he's de one who always make de day whn I'm down, Bt he's nt mine to share though...

Maybe in the future I'll find someone like you, bt this moment I still hiding my heart away to avoid disappointment...

R.E.M.I.N.I.S.C.E.N.C.E

Melaka trip by AMK 1 at last....is successfully accomplished!!!!

After a long plan & de continuous postpone by various of reasonssss....

At last its accomplished with a 2D 1N short trip for the 12 of us...

Its a trip with full consumption on foodsss...what else rite beside the food...??

We're nt realy into the history or buildings though..ahaha.

Its for the gathering...& we started off with chicken rice for the lunch, cendol & Nadeje crepe cake for the dessert & end our dinner with Satay Celup...which I feel jus so so for the sauce...

Nite...we starts la with out drinking session with all de usual mates around...

2 bottles of vodka...sounds possible for us to drink all bt end up oni few are drinkin till late nite, till de last consciousness left in us...

Some are even tired / drunk sleeps so early...Bt...its a satisfactory nite I can say..with all de laughter jus like when we're back in UK...

Aww...I jus miss thos moments alot...=/

However, during this trip my mind seems like fully taken by the reminiscence of him...

I brought along 2 items which he gave me during our last visits 2 yrs ago..

The Hat & the Bracelet...

I dont know y, bt I jus did it...& yeah...I pass by alot places that we went b4 that time...

Places were still the same just like the past 2 yrs, bt jus the people I went with different...

Hmmm...Guess that's de oni thgs he left for me...=)

We end our trip with seafood at Damansara call Lala Cheung...

Guess we were too high expectation on this restaurant till we spend about more thn RM 400 here...

Some of the dish is so so so nt worth that price...

Bt overall its still a satisfactory trip & food....=D

Guess I'm gonna expect more of this kinda trip in the future...Taiwan trip they say...

& I wonder can I realy make it with al my commitments in hands now...Gosh....

Wishes everything goes well for me & hit my target kao kao for nxt yr Hawaii trip...=D

Energetic Work Mood

Why I say that??

I realy dont know what got into me today...since morning till noon...

I'm so damn focus on my job like nvr b4...

Keep calling for appt, rushing my new sales in, calling all my revenue for appt...

Till I even don't dare to believe it's me doin all this...

If only I can be that energetic everyday...I would have alot of appt d...Zzzz...

Today I got to sign a customer on de spot...although its nt a big amount, bt its de satisfaction I gt by signing the client on de spot without follow up...

If everyday got this kinda cust...very fast I can hit my quota d lu...

But...dream can la..Hoping all de proposal I've sent bear some fruits for me la...pls come in..

Rely on u guys to hit my trip Quota d...=D

Sial??

I dont know whether is me sui or am I realy that cha my driving skills...???

My mum was right, in not more thn 1 yr my working time I involve in more thn 5times accident.

3of it is kinda big case...& WTF!!! Evrytime I gonna come out $$ where I want to save it...

Realy FUCK IT!!!

The moment I bang, the 1st thg I thought about is my mum, nt my $$!!

Feel so sorry to her cos she realy took gd care of the car & once its in my hand, it ruined by me...haih..

Sorry alot mum...realy sorry...

Today...Fuck kao de lorry cos scratch & drag my car & also headlamp...

I was lik stunned & even forgot to honk him!!!

Arghhhh....He knew I thk..& he drove fast away...ARGH!!!realy du kao lan!!!

This time...Gonna come out $$ again cos de head lamp broken...n bend in...& also have to spray paint due to last time that accident...

Seems lik nt a smooth yr for driving me...once a mth sure once...

Almost head bang also the other day, lucky de car avoid faster...OMG!!!

It was freaking freaky!!!

Bless me...bless me...bless me...pls...

Meeting

Since last time I don't even like this word MEETING!!!

It kills me inside out....

But...today I just went thru I thk de longest MEETING in my life I guess!!! 4hours in de morning + 2more hours in de evening...

Starts from 7.30am -11.30 am, from 5.30pm - 7.30pm.

The meeting for me is all about commitment that I have to commit for this whole canvass.where our team stand, individual position & sales update..

Basically I have to achieve about 330k in order to hit company quota & trip to Hawaii & additional KPI quota till 450k...Still wonder about my ability now.

I knew I'm not a person who will commit into something that I'm nt keen on for very long...& I started to feel bored in this job.

But when I thought of my manager & people who look at me & feel I'm thos success type of people, put hope on me, it stresses me...& I only have 1 choice which is to go on..

Like what my GM say, once you committed " You're just like a 8mth pregnant woman which must deliver the baby out"

Its kinda true though...

Always thought I never will went into sales field, bt at last end up on it.

But only sales field can give you the $$ which is more than just working a regular work, & I'm sure this company can give me what I want, with condition I fully commit into it & hit the sales quota.

However..in sales field its not easy to survive if you cant stand on the stress & I'm in one of the most powerful or I can say a very successful sales girl which very success & also set a very high standard on her division.

She realy got her way, that's y she have today. Must realy learn something from her personally to know her success secret I thk. =D

Hope I can realy got alot of real businesses comin in with dozens of proposal I've sent!!!

All De Best To Me!!!

Car Accident

Today is realy a very very suai day for me...

I dont know is it I too believe those karma or wat...

Maybe yesterdy is Guan Yin Ma bday & I didnt go to pray or wat...cos I'm de "anak angkat" we say...according to Chinese believe...

Jus one second close my eyes cos I'm so damn sleepy...& there it goes...BANG!!! my car into de lorry back...WTF!!!! is my 1st word...Damn...

Lucky the lorry jus de steel break abit..& lucky the uncle is so kind he asked me to repair my own car & he repair his own...OOoo...Thank GOD!!!!

Once I bang in tat moment, al I thk of is only my mum...nt my $$...cos its her car...moreover I feel so guilty that I didnt realy take good care of her car...

If it's my car...I would have gone mad as well...

That's y I didnt blame her...

The bill was gonna be a burden again...no more savings...haih...

All I can say is sorry mum!!!I realy guilty....=(

My other 2 frens oso met in a accident today...almost similar as mine...

It's realy nt a gd day to drive....

Finally

I make up my mind to tell him everythg I wanted...

& I got my answer...

It was kinda heartache at first when I open his profile & saw that I cant see his wall post anymore...

I knew this is de end...

I nvr regret that I've told him hw I feel...

Because with this action...I gt de answer...& leave me with no more guessing game again...

I'm glad...bt no denial tat I'm kinda sad as well...to lose this person who I once like...

& I realy feel like telling you..

"Thanks for all de wonderful memories, & I'm glad to have known u as a fren"

We will once again be 2 stranger who met but separate at last... =(

Met Him Unexpectedly

Never in my mind, I tot will saw u at thos places...never even cross my mind...

What if u met de person u lik unexpectedly with his EX??

What u'll feel....???

Actually de feelin is familiar...bt yet...still hurts when I encounter it jus now...

He try to explain....bt wat more to explain??

I saw it all...

I jus wanted to HUG u & say I MISS u,

Bt she's ther...therefore i RESPECT her...

Nvrmind...mayb it's fated to be like tis...

Mayb it's fated for me to saw u & wake up..."dun dream again idiot!!!"

Everythg's fated....=/

Changes or Changed??

Is it I'm de one who is changing constantly??

Or...U're de one who is changing??

Is it both of us has change??

Or...Is it our environment factor have changed us??

Clearly known that I myself keep insist believing its still exist yet in de surface,

it's clearly stated " Hello~~~dun u c de changes??"

De affections we once shared has gone,

De laugh we use to have had gone,

De passion we have for each other has also gone...

Watever we use to exp together seems nvr gonna come back again....

I jus cant stop thkin " things will never be the way they used to be" which hurt the most...

Which I have to slowly learn to accept the changes that is taking place...without crying....

We both know where our identities lies...

But I noe all tis while...I've been fightin for wat I love...& at least I fight for it...so I wont regret in de end....

And so be it...This is the answer...I learn to accept & move on~~

So sorry I've been appearing in your life...

I dont know whether I bring rainbow to your life...but you certainly makes my life more colorful with your existence...

I thank you for that =)

LIFE

I always believe in this quote "Appreciate ur loved ones before they left u one day, and u have no chance to meet them nor tok wit thm de thgs u always wanted to say"

Grandma....was always just lying down on her bed since stroke last yr...She cant tok well, nor remember us clearly sometimes...

Stil remember last time whn she was stil healthy, she would have tok to me....bt im jus too busy wit my own thgs...not at home all de time....

Whn she ill, oso i seldom goin n c her o tok to her...

Today....early in de morning around 7.40 am when my alarms ring...i heard de maid shout to my parents say "ah ma sudah tidak bernafas"

Shock....i cal my sis n we went to her room immediately...

Bt...she already stop breathing...

Tat time... suddenly...I thought of alot of thgs I wanna tell her...bt...nw..I gt no chance anymore...

Den...REGRET tis word came about in de mind...

Shud have care bout her more,

Shud spend some time to listen to wat she wanna say,

Shud have visit her more even she's in de bed...

Shud hav tis...Shud hav tat...

Bt...so many shud hav...oso no more chance d...

Wat we wanna tel her...jus tell her thru de incense stick...wat de hell....

She pass away peacefully...Guess she already have her wish or unfinish business fulfill in this living world...& ready to cross over to another world...

Cousins and aunts start comin...whn starts to wear for her al de jewellery...people starts to cry...

Cant stand...oso cry out...

Ceremony was held....whole day was jus praying....and only can say...hope...

Ah ma....U'll have a better life in the other world....bless ya..n happy always...

I'm sorry to ignore u whn u're ther,

Sory that I nvr had de time for u,

Sory that I nvr visit u often whn u sick....

Sory for evrythg.....Bless you ah ma....

So peeps out ther, if u have any words or thgs u wanna say to them or do it with them, do it now!!!before u REGRET!!!

Dun wait till u nid to talk to thm thru incense stick....tat would be no meanin after all...=(

Quote of the day:-

People say you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone. Truth is, you knew what you had, you just never thought you’d lose it.

InspiRation-Everything Reminds Me of You

One of the blog I saw from Owl city blog..meaninful and decide to paste it here...

Everything Reminds Me of You-http://owlcityblog.com/
On September 27th, 2010 by Adam Young

Dizzy.

That’s how you feel when you run into a significant other you haven’t seen in a long time. A bitter avalanche of icy memories plows into your chest at breakneck speed, stealing the very breath from your lungs. Gasping for air, there’s really no use fighting it; the blow is instantaneous and it’s overpowering. Your eyes land on this person, your heart immediately stops dead, your knees go weak and you internally panic. You force yourself to walk over, but before either of you say hello, you’ve already got an endless amount of things you secretly want to say and an equally lengthy list of questions you wish you could ask.

What affection the two of you once shared was absolutely beautiful, consequently rendering any unanticipated meetings thereafter twice as awkward. But as everyone always reminded you, life has a way of operating, God has a mysterious way of working, and sometimes things change without a moment’s warning. Even after it was all said and done, it’s still hard to imagine how things could’ve ever evolved from “always” to “never” in what seemed like a single dramatic heartbeat.

Months and months later, you run into this particular person unexpectedly and the realization hits you like a brick wall. The pain is still there. It’s almost as painful as the night you said goodbye. Enough time has passed to con you into thinking you’ve begun to heal, and of course you probably have, but then you see this person and suddenly those old familiar aches begin to hurt all over again. You were finally beginning to mend after what happened, the relationship withered and ended, however dramatically, but the moment you lock eyes with this person you once shared so many dreams with, your stomach turns and a bitter taste fills your mouth. You can barely breathe. Half of you aches for things to be the way they once were, the other half longs to forget the whole thing ever happened. Regardless of your role in the conclusion of the relationship, it left you shattered and bringing it up after all this time would only pour another dose of potent heartbreak for both of you.

So there you are, standing face-to-face, unsure of what to say aside from the typical small talk jabber. A myriad of emotions swirl through both your heads but they only make former lovers more confused. Maybe you hug an awkward I-haven’t-seen-you-in-forever gesture, but that familiar mixed scent of perfume and cologne makes it even more impossible to know how to act, brief as the impending conversation inevitably will be. You just can’t stop thinking “things will never be the way they used to be” and that’s what hurts most. You both know where your identities lie, Who ultimately claims your hearts and where your fortresses are… and those things are truly what matter most, but this unforeseen meeting is still severely painful and there’s no denying that. It keeps you both awake for nights.

As healing as it is, you can only drive around at night listening to The Swiss Army Romance so many times.

This is me being honest. I tossed and turned a lot last week. I thought about someone so much it was unhealthy.

So here’s hoping I fall asleep easier tonight if I send a simple message out into the void:

Boy,

I still care about you. I think about you all the time. I’m praying for you constantly. I want so badly to know you’re being taken care of. I wish you the best in life, not because you’ll surely find it, but because you deserve it. You deserve so much.

I just wish you knew how much I miss you.

Maria


I realy hope u noe Hw much I stil misses U...=(

C.o.m.e A.c.r.o.s.S

Have you ever come across a person which he may leave a very deep impact on your life??
Almost immediately you feel there is no 1 else lik him d?
Unless that's him~Only that particular him can giv u this feeling.

Only him can put de smile on your face,
Only him can giv U de calm whn U needed it the most,
Whn U hear his voice, all ur stress automatically jus vanish, & smiles will be on ur face,
Whn U cal him, de conversation between both of U jus never-ending,
U hope it can cont forever lik tis..

Wherever U go, U jus wish that "How Good if He was here right nw".
Whatever U C, U wanted to buy him 1 as well no matter wat.
Whenever U are alone, U wanted him to be ther,
Whenever de phone rings, de 1st name u wish to c was his name,
Whenever U are, Ur heart jus keep thking bout him or sumtimes he may accidentally pop out..he jus gives ur stomach the butterly feeling.

Whn U listen to de song that use to be his fav, U jus keep play it in repeating mode,
Thking hw he say he lik de song n U jus hate it, bt nw u jus loves it, cos its his fAV~
Thkin back de joke he used to tell U, Pattern he use to show U,
U jus realy wan thos Scenario to happen again... But U noe al that would never could happen again~~

All U left nw, was only the memories he left behind for U, Kept tightly, deepy in Ur heart...
Open it whn U realy realy miss him...and den cry as hard as U can to ease Ur yearn toward him~ No 1 noes, no 1 sees, no 1 feel,
Only You alone knows it de best!!!

YES..I came across such a person, n he become a person that realy leaves a impact so deep,
I just couldn't rub it off~~
3months over, U found Ur happiness, bt I'm stil de same old me..missing You so badly~~ Guess forever U wouldnt know~:(

~~Time Flies~~

Left 3more days before we officially say goodbye to Opal One,Sheffield...
Summer Gone...Autumn is here!!!^^
Feels lik it jus yesterday we jus reach here, everythg was stil new, we stil feel lik an alien to to tis place,
Bt nw we used to it d, we hav to say goodbye...
Tis place realy leave us alot memories....
Happy, Sad, Angry, 8gua, Gossip here n ther, n also a place wher we realy learn de darkest secret of the ppl we dun noe, or noe bt rarely und thm....

Today was de 1st final paper...n yet I got a feeling I'm gonna fail...>.<
I regreted i din study early for all de sub which make me din memorise de point...So heartache!! Bt..its over...its time to focus on another paper for tis thurs...
Jus now...All de unneccessary thg was pack into a box and sent back to msia...nw my room was lik so empty....
So reluctant to c it...>.<

I jus love tis room, loves here, loves de space, loves de weather..almost everythg bout here...
Bt sadly we cant stay!!!
Argh~~hoping we could stay longer....3mths...y it flies so fast....All De Sweet Puzzle Will Come To an End Soon~

Argh!!Jus dun1 leave here...:(

去年的这一天

去年的这一天，这个时间，
我们还在一起谈天，谈的好快乐，
陪你度过你的生日～

我真的很很想念去年的这一天～
但我知道，你已经有另一半陪在你身边陪你度过这一天～
我祝福你和她永远的快乐幸福～～

Tis day 21st August 2010 n I'm here at UK thinkin back last yr tis day~~how happy we were tat time, chit chatting away in Steven Corner n only me accompany u to pass 12am for ur bday.
After tat u fetch me back n promise that we'll come out tomoro for movie which is de day we gt together in the cinema....watching District 9~~

I miss you,
I miss that moments,
I miss this day,
I miss evrythg bout you,
You were so perfect that I feel i was too lucky to have You,
But here I Realistically realize You're nt mine anymore,
You got sum1 else to accompany you to celeb ur bday d,
Everythg is about her already...

I giv up,
I let go,
Silently I cried,
Jus to pour out hw much i realy misses u al by myself!!

I tot tis few mths I'm here I tot i can toughly let u go,
and make it like I dun miss u~
Bt den I knew its almost impossible,
Everytime...no matter I sees a person personality similar wit u,
Our picture,
Your video,
Thgs u teach me,
Your fav thg,brand,
Automatically reminds me of you~
Tears will be at de end of the eyes....:'(

I never noe tat u'll leave such an impact on me~~
Till evrytime i starts to drop tears for u~~
Tis is hw much u impact me!!Its indefinite~~

No matter wat!!I stil have to accept the truth although it realy stab me fuckin hard on my heart!!
I cherish both of u to have happy live and live happily all the way~~

I ♥My Bdayyy ♥ =D

Here's de best part....Its my bday & i'm celebrating it @ UK....hw great was tat???
I have nothg to ask that could be beta than tis opportunity to celeb here....

Gotta say a great great thanks to all my frens here who celebrated for me.....especially my dear dear fren TAN YOKE SAN who work so hard to bluff me...ahaha...thanks alot~~XD

Thanks to Evon, Kahoe, Heok, Kah Hing, David, Heng Siang, Lan ing, WK,L, JL...for de 1st party celebration....^^
We ate our dinner @Zing Vaa, a chinese restaurant where the rice is free flow....OMG!!its a great news for thos gentlemen...cos food is lik gold to thm...where they can eat unlimited rice....
De dish was awesome....^ I'm addicted to de "Pai Kut"...OMFG....Its fuckin delicious...argh....=D

After de dinner...thy wanna bluff me to Evon hs lagi...ahaha...I realy tot of havin a chat o sumthg...bt mana tau...go til de door ther....Blackcurrant cheese cake is waiting for me & thy sing Bday song.....
Ahaha....WOW~~~wat a suprise which i nvr expected...^^ TQ so much.....& oso de lovely pink pyjamas for my present.....I ♥ it la....!!!!!

Hehe~~den back to room....& den my dear Jonathan says ther's discussion for de assigns.....& again go to Cheng hs for discussion...
Tis time realy gt trick by TYS again...cos of her perfect acting skills...which act tat she darn tired....complain tis n tat...bt act she noes evrythg....XD

Bt mana tau say discussion go ther tok cock oni for tat half n hour n Yee Sing which bday falls on de same day wit me oso come up...weird...evry1 wants to discuss de assigns in Cheng kitchen....ahaha....

Den Off~~de room was dark~~& den come la...Happy bday to u....happy bday to u~~~
Cake come in....another suprise party from Jonathan,Cheng, Meiyi, William, Huat, Wendy, Sok li for me n Yee Sing....shock!!!ahaha....bt its a great 1....
Gd plannin by Jon & Ys~~XD

We gonna have a grand buffet tomoro evening....hehe...wee~~^^

Lastly....Happy bday to myself.....a great celebration bday in UK!!!
Wat else can I ask for????=D

WAKE UP!!!!!

Duno y sudenly i feel myself nt in reality lidat....
I'm in UK...although ady almost 3weeks here....i still dun believe...
Y ha....??
Bt sudenly when we're after dinner...YS say dun u feel sad we stil hav 2more mths here oni...
Ya....sudenly i feel like...ya ha...abit sad...dun feel lik goin bak M'sia...
Although i realy miss my family n frens in m'sia...
Bt here seems lik a fresh start of evrythg...rite??

Helo...Maria...pls wake up lo ok!!!
U're at UK d....wat u thkin sumur??
Treasure tis moment more than anythg else....
Gt a Degree & make ur parents proud of u!!!
& den enjoy life den bak Msia find a gd job & start to pay up ur debt!!!Argh...de hardest part!!
Ahaha.....tats de cycle of life rite???XD

Emo~I've been living in tat world too long....
I can gt up...bt depend on myself whether i want o nt oni...
Bt den after Ys told me de details...
I shud gt up nw & move on!!!Shudnt put too much at 1st...shud have listen to my fren..
Nw...I shud~~
Nt to look back cos i had a better future waiting for me...
Nt to put too much cos i noe at de end, de suffer one would be me again....
I dun wan it to happen again..It's lik a endless dark world...that covers all over me..Fuck!!!

So~~Maria,U shud noe wat u shud do nw rite??
Gt ur fatty ass up & start walkin to de future..pls...
Ahaha...Thanks to my dear fren who und me.....support me....realy thanks...touch...
Cos thy've been thru all de rough moment with me...
Thanks alot Yok-Ke-San!!!XD