少了一个人

朋友聚会吵闹的快乐 在她们离开以后变稀薄
走路回家 回像山洞的窝 突然渴望有人 能来接我
泡著热水在浴室赖著 思念却也被滚烫冒烟了
最后的简讯 看到能背了 多久没有再联络 一想还是痛

少了一个人宠爱我
朋友的爱 成分就是不同
最难过 是笑著面对被羡慕自由
练很久的成熟 也快遮掩不住 寂寞

妈妈在电话裏挂念我 上次欲言又止她还记得
喜欢装没事 其实最累了 但我清楚很多事 哭了也没用

少了一个人拥抱我
那种拥抱 能够忘了所有
两个人 就算下雪后赤脚逆著风
也不觉得冰冻 还笑得比阳光 炽热

少了一个人懂得我
能够体会 我倔强又脆弱
不记仇 温柔原谅我情绪太波动
用泪光舍不得 融化我累积的 寂寞
很固执 无条件爱我从来没变过
在大吵的时候 会抱著我 沉默 不动

Really misses u so much~~haih~~=(

你找到幸福了

You're happy cos u've found ur happiness
b4 I go,u already gt urself a new one...
Bt yet I'm stil here hangin although I clearly noe u'll nvr come bak to me...
U realy turn so fast till i nvr gt a chance to react...

Wat i regret de most is I already knew the prob bt yet I so insist on goin on,nvr tok bout tis matter...
I angry de most is that u didnt even giv me a 2nd chance to make tis relationship right~~& straight away jump to the other person...

She's de one u love nw...
She would gt all de attention she nid from u nw...
She gt ur care...
She oso have ur love...

Bt y...whn u say we r nt in de same path...u so sure that she's in de same path wit u??
Doesnt we oso been thru de way u treating her nw??
Dont we oso have happy moments for u to remember??
Y u had to be so cruel towards me??
De way u treating me nw is nt de way u make me angry so tat i can leave u early...,
It jus make me more sad & left oni sour memories that i can gain from here...realy...>.<

Even ur sis started to treat me tat way...Fierce to me...
Lik I'm de one who betray this relationship...
Am I nw??
Who turn his back on me & ran to others whn I realy Loves him & needed him de most??
Y am I treated lidat??
I gt no choice bt to stand tough~~
Whn i go bak i feel so stress to face her...
I rather bak late...or if u're ther oni i bak...

Nvrmind al tat I told myself...
Thgs are diff from de past nw...
I noe i have to move on by myself...
I noe i canot rely on u anymore...although i realy nid it...
I Stil have my dear family & frens wit me...

Bt..i realy wanted to let u noe...I realy put in 101% into this relationship~~=(
My fren told me...nvr put in 100% if de relationship is nt more thn a Year...I guess its a lesson...

♥那么近却又那么远的感觉

As a fren was wat u told me u wanna be~~
I couldnt realy accept it,yet i mus force myself to accept tat tis is de truth happening.
I saw u was much happier lidat, I feel happy,
Bt same time I feel sad y u can let it go so fast & easy~~
Dear no sad whn u decide tis decision ma??
Is there realy no love for me from u??

U started to drink again...
Bt wit ur colleague which is gal~~
I noe i already have no right to be jealous o angry.
Bt tat's exactly wat i'm doin whn u say u wan go movie, dinner wit thm.
I would thk y dear last time wit me canot lidat, bt y nw...
Haih~~oni dear noe de answer...
If I'm was de one who do tat go out wit guys would dear feel sad ma??

My heart feel heavy day by day when de day pass~~
Cos i noe i'm leavin you soon...
I realy dont hope it would pass so fast...
I noe i have to learn de hard way to let u go~~
Bt I'm afraid dear...I so scare....
Although u told me u wil stil care for me.
Bt after all tis will u contact me???
I nvr wanna lose contact wit u~~

Tis few days i consider myself vry clever d...cos i manage to nt cal dear during my free time...which last time i always did...
Its awkward, cos usually i wil cal dear if anythg...tellin u al de exciting thg happen..bt nw i cant d...
I jus have to keep it to myself...

I feel so suffer...bt yet i noe tis is de step i nid to take cos I ♥ You.
I noe all u did was nt to let me put hope on u~~
Bt u noe its impossible...
All i wish was jus tat we spend tis few weeks happily & then we recover from our past~~
I nvr expect u'll leave me as I stil gt alot of thg I wanna do with u together hand in handin future....
I always convince myself tat " We jus met at the wrong timing, Path was nt de same as we aim for different thgs "